I wanted to share a few things today about being "the bad guy" in a situation. I've wanted to deal with the issue since yesterday afternoon but have held off waiting till I can look at it in a rational and noncombative manner. Now I don't even want to talk about that . So I will talk about the waiting. I don't wait to respond to things long enough usually. Most times someone says something, I don't like it, and I pop off with something that I had no business saying. I've had the same done to me. Why are most of us so explosive? I think I may have figured part of it out. All of us in one way or another are looking, wrongly, for those around us to validate us. Anytime something is said or done that does not validate who we are or what we do, say, or feel... BAM! Red Alert, Shields up, Phasers at the ready and load the Photon Torpedos(woop woop woop). We go all Captain Kirk and fire first, talk later. I'm quite the idiot in that respect. Well, I had a chance to fire some Photons in the past day and didn't. Yay me! I didn't even use the Phasers! Woo hoo! BUT, the shields did go up. And I didn't really respond to the other vessel hailing me. (ok, the star trek metaphor is out of control). Well, that still makes me an idiot. Even if I am waiting till I am more Picard than Kirk in demeanor, I can't ignore what is going on. You have to respond when hailed...

I know, this was senseless rambling, sorry... I could have talked about Smurfs again...