Waiting. I do not like waiting. I'm a fairly strong guy when it comes to containing my emotions. But experience has taught me that no matter how strong any of us are, we are still as fragile as the most delicate crystal. The part of waiting for an answer is the unknown. If we knew what it would be, then there is nothing to fear. But not knowing means the answer could be the one we do not want. Nothing earthly is an absolute given. I've lived that over and over. Our jobs, our loved ones health, the things we own, and everything that makes us feel safe and comfortable are not certain. We can lose them all in instant. And when we try to regain something lost, we know that we may never get it back. That's why I am glad my ultimate reward is not here on earth. It is that knowledge that keeps me going even when the answer here, is no.

So, I am yet again waiting on an answer. If it is yes, then world will be transformed. All will seem right. But if the answer is no, do I have the courage to be transformed by that? Not on my own. Remember, fragile. So I'll keep praying. I'll keep pointing the questions to God. I like his no's much better than anyone else's. And his yes's are the most wonderful thing in the world.

No Run Redman Run today. Man. I am disappointed. But I am sure that it will be well worth the wait.